I admit it. I am weak. Far weaker than i let on. But, i am working on being fine with that. I am struggling right now with my body image. I know, really I KNOW in my heart, that this stuff doesnt matter. That i have friends who love me and think i am beautiful, where how much i weigh, or what i look llike in certain clothes isnt even a factor at all. i know that i love to dance, and play and climb trees, and that this doesnt define me...

but i am disappointed in myself.

I am so worried about my body all the time that in the last few weeks it has made me so cut off and isolated...

But i am a person who cant just accept things. I am making goals, good healthy goals, to befriend my body in better ways. I think that i will just feel alot better about myself if i can accomplish some of these goals.

I am making other goals too. A list of cool things i have to do within this short time frame i call my life.

Soon it will be my 20th birthday, heck, its the start of 2007 right now. I guess what i want for myself is that i start moving, get going, leave things in the past and head full speed ahead into my future.

Step one, focus on school, keep my marks up!
Setp two, get into the Ghana program. i need to get out of here, and get some perspective on other ways to conceptualize life.

There are many others steps i wont bore you with now.

I am work in progress.

Not striving. But living how i define that glorious term.

em.