So Tanzania...


So i am thinking of runnind away, but in a new way. In a way that will not leave me tired, weary, and short of breath. The year For God programme will be just that, a year concentrated on my Father, and on serving others (the best way to get your mind off of your own selfishness). I will be hearing lectures on topics in which i can search for wisdom, and truth, and for me to learn, to really base my faith on. Then, i can do relief and development work, live in community, get out of this consumer culture, this impersonal day to day, and seek uncluttered, undistracted joy. I am stoked. As of now, i have little doubt that this is what i should do, but i have been praying continually that God would protect this path from darkness, and doubt, a much as possible, so that i can step out in faith, and stay encouraged.

I really want to do this. I really think it is exactly what i need right now. I want to get out. I want to focus on God, to rely on Him in a place somewhat seperated from the comforts that keep my faith in such a comfortable place.

i am anxious. I want to go now. But it's not for a while. So i will chill out.

Your prayers would be great friends!

melis.